It’s been a while since I’ve shared a “fashion post” with you all.
Mostly because I was beginning to get wrapped up in comments and compliments.
I began letting feeling my self identity become lost in your voice.
I would wait impatiently each week for people to tell me if I…
…did it right
…had the right shoes
…wore a cute outfit
Then I would sit back and use hashtags like #fashionblogger
What a mindless joke.
You would think I would enjoy posting what i wore pics.
After all I’ve been working my ass off.
I should be revleing in those 7inches and now 5lbs lost.
Yet, with each post I would only see the imperfections.
The places I was still trying to loose.
….my arms still need work
I got to a place where I cared more about what you thought of me
than what I thought of me
or my husband thought of how I looked or how I dressed.
Nothing is good enough.
No compliment helps me see past what I haven’t achieved
or still have yet to achieve.
So the last few weeks I took a break.
What a breathe of fresh air!
It made me realize that these posts are more than pretending to be a pretencious fashion blogger.
Something I will never be, nor claim to be,
but I want to still post occasionally.
Because these posts have represent a new reminder for me.
They represent how damn hard I’ve worked to loose those 7inches and albs
They show that if I can do it, seriously anyone can.
Just read my journey if you don’t believe me.
They remind me that it’s ok to be confident and excited about
…getting out of my sweats
…taking a shower
…getting dolled up
just for the sole purpose of feeling good about me
and who I am.
So, I may not post outfit pics every week, but I will keep posting them.
But with a renewed outlook,
that this is another wonderful way for me to document a new journey.
A journey that represents learning how to love myself for who I am.
To stop trying to change all the time.
To trying to see the good, instead of focusing on what could be.
Do you ever feel that way?
Where you’ve lost sight of what really matters?
How do you get back on track?
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