If we were to sit down for coffee I would probably tell you through tears that I was not mommy of the year yesterday.
In the midst of my kids recovering from their colds, I’m trying to recover from my own cold on top of juggling our busy family schedule.
Yesterday I was tired. Like, nap in the middle of the day tired. So I laid down to take a nap. I was on the couch, but moved to my bed thinking I would just take a quick catnap.
Both kids were down for a nap and the hubby was working from home before a meeting so I figured I’d hear him leave and get up before the kids.
Well… I didn’t hear him leave and when he left Katelyn was playing quietly in the playroom. The hubby asked her to play quietly and put some warmer clothes on and that I would be up soon.
That was at 3:30 (I was later told).
At 5pm I woke up with a start to my daughter walking through the FRONT DOOR of our home.
UGH! I’m mortified and my mind is re-living the horrible fears as I write this.
I ran into the living room to see my daughter in a tank top, a tutu skirt and no shoes standing in the living room.
I FREAKED!
She just stood there looking at me as I interrogated her, my voice filled with worry.
Where have you been?
What were you doing outside?
Who let you go outside?
Do you realize you could’ve been hit by a car?
Do you realize someone could’ve taken you?
It went on and on….
When I stopped she told me she was outside, gardening with the gardener.
I sent her to her room.
I walked outside and casually asked our gardener if Katelyn had been bothering him. She was helping him dig and plant in the yard. He had to go out to his truck and she followed him to his car and then came in the house through the front door.
AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!! What?! Where was I? Oh my goodness?! Sleeping!!!
As I walk back it the house I trip over her brand new ballet shoes…. that she had been gardening in.
Now through tears and frustration I have to go have a grown up conversation with my little girl. Thank goodness Brayden was still asleep.
I’ll spare you the tears, the punishment, and the explanation to my husband about what happened in the few short hours he was gone.
Did I mention I’m SO NOT mom of the year?
I would also tell you how the worst part of it all is that something could’ve happened to this sweet little girl of mine and I would’ve been asleep.
I’m so thankful to have a God who was watching out for her and protecting her.
Then I would wipe my tears, hopefully… take a sip of coffee and a deep breath and ….
Ask you how you are doing friend.
I want to hear about your week. How are you being blessed this week?
So will you join me for a cup of coffee?
Simply Authentic says
Hiya—I know that I’m a more recent reader but I just want you to know that my heart goes out to you. It’s always tough to be sick and obviously your body just needed a good sleep and a break. Definitely recognize it was a scary event, but hopefully you won’t let it hang over your head too long. The best thing is that your sweet girl was a-okay…..and it was a learning experience for everyone. I think that’s a big piece of what parenting and also being the kiddo are all about. Some mistakes are scarier than others though, but in a situation like this where it’s okay in the end we also can reflect upon what might have been done differently. I hope you continue to feel better and are back up to par soon!
Rags to Stiches says
Thank you sweet friend! It means so much to me that you reached out to me. I felt so defeated, like I had majorly screwed up. I’m so glad that we have a wonderful gardener who we know and trust. Now that my daughter doesn’t really nap anymore during nap time, I have to be so much more alert. It’s been a transition for sure.
Chrissy Boerman says
Girl so glad everything turned out okay. i know the feeling of sleeping when you should be with your kids. I have been sleeping a lot lately and unfortunately for my youngest she can not open doors so she gets stuck in her room for hours until I get up. We do the best we can! you are a great Mom! Thanks for the coffee date! http://boermanramblings.blogspot.com/2012/01/time-for-our-friday-coffee-date.html
Janene@EverydayEO says
Hope you are all feeling better–that is so scary but I’m glad that she was okay–drinking coffee and finished a post now–three hour work day and then a big meeting to discuss next years plans. Thankful for the weekend!! Rest up and get completely well: )
Jacqui of Baby Boy Bakery says
Glad K is alright. You are right that is scary. But stuff like that happens, we learn from it. You are one of the best moms I know. In a way I believe you came into my life to show me how to be a better mom!
Love you much!
Alyson @EisleyRae says
Don’t beat yourself up, Alissa! Yes, it’s scary and thankfully nothing happened. But, stuff like that happens to all of us. It doesn’t make you a bad mom. I know ALL about being sick & tired and have slept a lot this week myself. We do what we have to do, you know? Just don’t be so hard on yourself friend. You’re a wonderful mommy… and there’s proof in that.. K didn’t wander off down the street, she stayed in your yard! Hope you get to relax a little this weekend and that you’re feeling better!
jen says
oh friend, a big hug to you! you are a great mama! I am glad K is ok and nothing bad happened. so so loving your new blog design.
I think I might do sponsorship on your blog for february. I’ve noticed a lot of hits on my etsy shop and blog from your site 🙂
{just looking at the budget}
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Kate says
You are not alone and you are not a bad mommy.
I’ve been there. A few months back I decided to take a shower. Unbeknownst to me, V had learned how to unlock the front door. When I came down twenty minutes later – no V. ANYWHERE. Not in the yard or any where in the house. I was on the phone with the police when I saw my little girl skipping down the sidewalk.
I could have DIED!
Kassi @ Truly Lovely says
Oh girl! I am so sorry… You should know that things like that will happen and when you’re sick and tired you can’t blame yourself. Besides maybe God let you sleep so that little miss had the opportunity to wonder outside when there was someone who had an eye on her (the gardener) SO that He could help HER learn a lesson. A lesson to not wonder off without mommy or daddy, but a lesson learned in a fairly safe environment. Maybe it wasn’t about you being mom of the year at all. 😉 Even though you do know you have 11 FULL months to get that title back. 🙂
kirstie@bonhomiejewels says
Aww, sweetie……I’m so sorry for your worry and concern! So frightening, I know. We are all so lucky to have a God who watches over us always. Please give yourself some grace….we’ve all been there and none of us are perfect.
That’s what I would say to you over a cup of coffee 🙂
Beth @ Through the Eyes of the Mrs. says
Thank goodness she is okay and please don’t beat yourself up about this. It’s a new day and as mothers we always do better tomorrow. This has happened to my neighbor once. She works midnights and somehow her four year old and two year old got outside and took a walk to the park. She didn’t wake up until a police officer was at her door. She felt terrible and was so worried with thoughts of what could have happened. God watches over our little ones and tomorrow is a new day. Hugs to you friend. xoxo
aleks says
Thank the Lord you have a sweet gardener! I would be freaked out too but its not your fault, dont beat yourself up. Look on the brightside, nothing happened. If you played the what if game all the time what stress you would have. God knew you needed to rest, so he sent your gardener to ‘babysit’ haha. I hope you have a much better day tomorrow!!
JLa says
Oh friend! I wish we could have coffee and I could give you a huge hug! How scary. You are an incredible mother and the fact that you are so honest and share your struggles inspires SO MANY people! I adore you! (PS-lets make that coffee date happen soon)