This week I’ve felt off.
I’ve found myself restless.
Questioning who I am, decisions I’m making, commitments I have.
I’ve found myself moved to tears by the littlest of moments.
A kiss or a hug from my kids.
A thoughtful text from my husband letting me know he’s thinking of me and asking me how my day is going.
An unexpected phone call, email, or text from a friend letting me know how much I mean to them.
With Easter approaching I feel this heaviness in my heart.
Not a bad heaviness, but one that’s causing reflection…. and prayer.
Even as I sit here tonight, enjoying some relaxing time to myself, I’m distracted by the weekend fast approaching.
Mentally I’m making lists of stores I need to get to, food that needs to be prepared, a house that needs to be cleaned for company on Sunday.
Physically, I’m immovable and so aware of the events that happened so many years ago.
Tomorrow is Good Friday.
A day when our heavenly father walked carrying a heavier load than I’ll ever be able to comprehend.
The weight of the world and their sins.
He was mocked.
Shamed in front of many.
As I think about tomorrow my mind goes to my children.
Am I doing enough to help them understand the significance of this Jesus we talk about?
Am I being enough of an example to them?
Am I Jesus with skin on to them?
As this weekend approaches I’m thankful…. so thankful….
That we have an amazing God who loved us enough to sacrifice what meant more to him than anything in the world.
And he did so willingly.
And like his Father gave Jesus, his son, Jesus, in turn, gave his life for us.
And I’m awestruck by that.
I’m overwhelmed by just the thought of sacrificing either of my precious children.
As this weekend approaches I’m feeling blessed.
Blessed to have such an amazing, loving and supportive family.
Blessed to, for the first time in a long time, have wonderful girl friends in my life. Girl friends I’ve longed for, that I’ve felt a piece of emptiness without.
Girl friends who invite you and your little ones over for an Easter celebration, but don’t forget the true meaning that is often glossed over by Easter bunnies and egg hunts. Love you friend.
But most of all, this weekend I’m going to be remember and holding onto
He is Risen Indeed!
I hope you have a wonderful Easter weekend friends.
Thanks for stopping by for coffee today.
I love you and appreciate you more than you will ever know.
Alyson @EisleyRae says
I love this post. Sorry that you’ve had a bit of a rough week. Hope next week is better friend. Love you lots! xoxo
And, btw.. your kids are precious. As always.
Rags to Stiches says
Thank you. I hope you are filled with blessings this weekend.
I’m so Sorry about your week and then with me calling. You are such an Amazing Person and I feel very Blessed to call you my Friend. Remember if you ever want to talk I’m a phone call or email away.
Hope your week turns around and can’t wait to see you soon at Snap!
Jessica McMasters says
Love your post! I had goose bumps when reading it 🙂 I pray that our children grow up to know the true meaning of Easter and Christmas and not the superficial. It’s not about the eggs, bunnies, presents…it’s all about our Savior.
Kassi @ Truly Lovely says
Wishing you and your family a love filled Easter!!! I think you’re doing a great job with everything you do! I understand that feeling of restlessness though… Especially at a time like this when we SHOULD be pondering things done for us and how we share His teachings. 🙂 But like I said, you rock. 🙂