ever so often i find myself questioning myself
questioning myself as a wife
as a mom
as a friend
life seems to fly by in this blur.
you know those movies where you see the main character standing still and all around her people, cars, movement is all one big blur of lights and sounds seem to all blend together?
that’s how I feel sometimes.
i begin to hyperventilate, just a little.
i pull out paper and begin to make lists
pull out my calendar to check and make sure i haven’t forgotten anything.
forgotten stuff – that seems to happen lately too.
my lists are starting to include things like
brush your teeth
shower
shave
call your friends
ugh call your friends
i feel like sometimes i get lost in the world of keep the house clean, sew special orders, upload new items to the blog.
i forget to call my friends.
i want to talk to them.
i miss them.
then I hear myself say, “say no.”
not say no to being a good wife, a good mom, a good friend.
say no to all the other things.
the things that make me feel like I’m in a stand still blur.
Love on my children.
Stop and snuggle.
Don’t be afraid to sweat while chasing after my kids.
Be willing to clean the house after the kids go to bed sometimes.
Even when I want to veg out on the couch.
Spend time with God more.
Let him fulfill me first.
Then worry about my to do list.
I’m learning to find perfection through imperfections.
Love more… work less.
The Arizona Russums says
i so often feel like this too – like i need a list to keep myself together. but then when i stop for a moment, i realize i don't want to do my list, because the people i love aren't on there. and your family pics are gorgeous by the way!
Handbags*N*Pigtails says
In a society that makes us feel like we should always "say yes", that we should always "be busy" its hard to say no to certain things. But Ive also learned that for my own mental sanity I have to now and then. Praying for you, friend!
Mommyblogger says
This post absolutely speaks to my heart. I find myself making a daily to do list & at the end of the day being upset if every single item isn't checked off. It's so easy to get caught up in the little things & forget what really makes us happy and what is really important. Great reminder for a Monday morning!
lydia. says
inspiring post! : )
you have such a beautiful family!
Beth @ Through the Eyes of the Mrs. says
Very inspiring. I too have these blur moments and tend to get overwhelmed with the daily things.
xoxo
Lindsay says
Oh girl, this is ALL totally normal. I struggle with the SAME THINGS. I think it comes with being a momma 🙂
Julie {CalleLillyCafe} says
I just had this same 'ah-ha' moment these past 2 mos. I went from doing it all each day & doing all at 250+ mph, to zero. Boom! Just like that. I was hospitalized & too many trips to the ER. I felt like I was in a coma for 2 mos. I missed everything. My husband stepped it up & had to do all I did plus take care of our 3 girls & all his stuff. He didn't work the entire time bcuz I was so sick. Many friends helped & I'm thankful. I truly believe all that happened to me was a wake up call to change my life. I just got back into the swing of things & I'm doing just that. =)
Ernestine Edna says
I have always been a working mom (not by choice, my ex didn't think supporting his family was a necessity) and finding time to balance work and family and everything else has always been a challenge. I have been blessed to have great friends at work and thanks to the internet I have friends around the world that I don't have to leave my house to support and be supported. My house is messy…it's small and there are four people LIVING in it…it drives me crazy, but it is what it is. While I believe that a clean house is important, the time I spend with my kids and hubby is more important to me. My kids don't have everything "everyone else has" in our upscale community, but we have great adventures and memories of great adventures and I try to encourage their interests and dreams. We are definitely a unique little family…(My kids and I were at the House of Blues on Saturday rocking out together to a friend's band while my husband was out with a friend for all you can eat sushi!)
It takes time to connect with your kids regardless of your situation…it's always great to have nudges to remind us what's important to us.
The Every Day Extraordinary says
Simplify is my word of the year–a work in progress I tell you–two steps forward–two steps back–it's this dance thing we have going on…sigh. Work less–love more. Love it!
Faith says
aw great post! i think we all get to that point many times in our life's journey. its finding joy in every circumstances and embracing all the things that make it all worthwhile. thanks for sharing your heart with us. 🙂
Kassi @ Truly Lovely says
I agree! It seems like everything can just run away from you if you aren't making lists, walking around in a blur… But I like that, "say no". I need to work on that.
babyboybakery says
AGREED!
I feel overwhelmed most of the time!
I love this post, because it makes me feel like I am not alone.
I heart you!
PS no need to call me…I get to see you SOON! 😀
Jacqui
http://www.babyboybakery.com
Lindsay says
Can totally relate! It's funny I was just catching up on a couple of your posts before I got to this one and was thinking that it's amazing how much you seem to get done in a day! I have to remind myself daily not to compare myself to others and to start with what's important – time with the Lord and my family – and if that's all that gets done, it's a good day! 🙂
Rachel says
I'm almost the opposite of this at the moment…and I still struggle. I've recently moved to a new place because of my husband's job. I've gone from being super busy to not having a job and my hubby out all day. Suddenly I have all this time to do all the things I want to do and be a good friend but I'm still finding it lonely, and it's still hard to motivate myself to do all that bible study that I promised myself I was going to do!
Thanks for this post…I needed it today for a bit of motivation to make the most of this time!
Natalie Ensor says
New follower. Love this post and love to know you too feel this way, like you can't grab hold of anything because your spinning out of control. So thankful our God is in control of our lives and not ourselves.right?
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Heather :: AFD Jewelry :: says
I have been feeling like that often, myself.
You are an amazing mom, an amazing wife, an amazing person. Big hugs!
Heather says
somehow I found my way here, I don't even remember from where, but I am glad I did.
As you already know, YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
I feel overwhelmed to frequently and I hate that we live in a world where that is 'the norm'.
I'm thankful we can take a step back and realize the solution, LOVE MORE. WORK LESS!! He will provide.
XO
Kate says
Great post! & new follower…cute lil place you have here
XO, Kate