ever so often i find myself questioning myself
questioning myself as a wife
as a mom
as a friend
life seems to fly by in this blur.
you know those movies where you see the main character standing still and all around her people, cars, movement is all one big blur of lights and sounds seem to all blend together?
that’s how I feel sometimes.
i begin to hyperventilate, just a little.
i pull out paper and begin to make lists
pull out my calendar to check and make sure i haven’t forgotten anything.
forgotten stuff – that seems to happen lately too.
my lists are starting to include things like
brush your teeth
call your friends
ugh call your friends
i feel like sometimes i get lost in the world of keep the house clean, sew special orders, upload new items to the blog.
i forget to call my friends.
i want to talk to them.
i miss them.
then I hear myself say, “say no.”
not say no to being a good wife, a good mom, a good friend.
say no to all the other things.
the things that make me feel like I’m in a stand still blur.
Love on my children.
Stop and snuggle.
Don’t be afraid to sweat while chasing after my kids.
Be willing to clean the house after the kids go to bed sometimes.
Even when I want to veg out on the couch.
Spend time with God more.
Let him fulfill me first.
Then worry about my to do list.
I’m learning to find perfection through imperfections.
Love more… work less.