These past few weeks I’ve been doing a series called On My Heart and some incredible women have stopped by to share their story. Megan from Absolute Mommy is no exception. I’m so excited to have her sharing her heart with us today. Please be sure to leave her words of encouragement and I will be praying her words touch your heart today as they’ve touched mine.
Take it away MEGAN:
Faith. It’s been a long journey for me. While I wasn’t raised in the church, I consider myself a Catholic. However, these days more of a Christian. I used to feel really challenged by faith. By what I believed. How I prayed. That is until I started blogging, and found other bloggers who write and live their Christian life in a way that was not isolating or polarizing. Bloggers that talk of the daily blessings, the daily lessons in faith, the simple prayers that can be offered. I used to think these lessons were reserved for church. I now understand that these lessons, and God’s words can be experienced and taught anywhere and everywhere.
With that, I’d like to let you know the recent blessings and reminders I’ve had in the last few months. Ways that allow me to have a better understanding of the path that I’ve been put on. That have allowed me to have a deeper faith in that plan.
I feel incredibly blessed to have the parents I have. To have the mother I have. The support and love they give me make my life possible. I call my mom every day. Sometimes more than 5 times. It’s what we do. I am so lucky to be able to do this.
They will have been married 38 years in September.
My grandparents on both sides (mom and dad) are still here. On this earth. And they get to enjoy my children. This is a gigantic blessing for me. I don’t even have the words to explain it. I wish I could show you a picture of Papa and GG (what my kiddos call them) playing with the girls so you could see the joy in their eyes. I have this picture of my grandmother with all of her grandchildren and great grandchildren. They joy and loves that she gives to my girls makes my heart swell with joy.
|Mackenzie and her Papa on Easter 2012|
|My Grandma Chila with her Grand daughters and Great Granddaughters|
I have a husband who loves me anyway. Sometimes I’m a grumpy, mean, a crazy lady. He loves me anyway. When I don’t make dinner, the laundry isn’t folded and last nights dishes are still in the sink. He loves me anyway. When I’m blogging, and other “things” are happening, and kids are “being loud” around the house, and I say “just 5 minutes” or “I’m almost done”. He loves me anyway.
|Seven years of marriage this year!|
My girls. Both born without complication and without illness. Born into a family with great love and loyalty. They have grown without any major circumstance. That is a blessing all on it’s own. My heart hurts when I think about how lucky we got. When I allow myself to drift into the what ifs. When I see other posts about someone else’s angels. I say a prayer.
|Me and my girls.|
My life. Recently I’ve undergone some tests. I’ve seen some doctors. I’ve been sick. Really sick. What I know now is that it’s all treatable. In fact it’s easily treatable. No hospitals, no drugs like chemo, no surgeries. I will be taking supplements, and some B12 shots. I will also have to eat grain free for 12-16 weeks. Again another reminder that there is a huge power in prayer, and faith, and people (doctor’s even).
Blogging. Wait, for reals. Hear me out. I started this blog for many reasons. To remember who I was. To have something all my own, to share my story, and hopefully to help others. It never occurred to me that I would make such amazing friends. That their support would sometimes trump that of “real life” friends. That their understanding would make all the difference.
I also didn’t know then, that I would have my faith and my relationship with God, take on a whole new meaning.
Yes, I believe. I’ve had faith and shared faith over the years. But, we are not a church going family. We do not worship every Sunday. In the past I’d say an occasional prayer. Please believe me when I say that blogging has totally changed that. I have found that faith happens where you are, and when you are living. That conversations with God and prayer can happen everyday, all day. That faith doesn’t have to isolate you. Faith can simply transform you.
Please don’t hear me wrong. Please understand that this is incredibly hard for me to write. I’m not very open about faith. I bet if you know me really well this entire post is a surprise. Do I cuss? Yes. Do I gossip? Yes. Do I live everyday the way God would like? No. However, my view on faith, the idea of living a Christian way of life, and the absolute belief in prayer have been forever changed. Bloggers like Alissa, Casey Wiegand, Nichelle, and Salena have all changed my outlook on faith. They have all challenged me to let go to a greater faith. To believe in what I can’t totally grasp.
And I’m thankful. For all of it. To be able to have a stronger faith now, than I’ve ever had in my life.
So thank you, Alissa, for this opportunity to share a little bit of me that isn’t always seen on my blog.
You, and this strong sisterhood of bloggers has blessed me more than I thought possible.
jen @knotieties says
thank you so much for sharing this. it’s a brave reminder that if we are willing to meet God, he will find us and reveal Himself…even through blogging. …and help us meet some pretty cool new friends too 🙂
megan- so beautiful! faith happens where you are. it happens in your relationship with your Creator, in your daily life with others. and- unexpectedly- online. 🙂 thanks so much for sharing!
I have had what I refer to as a crisis of faith over the past few years that has really shaken me to the core. I’m still flailing a little bit, trying to find my way back. I really really relate to every word you wrote and thank you for putting it out there. Posts like this one are why I love the blogging community.
Stephanie Hillberry says
Megan–I agree that sharing about faith in such a public way is challenging, and I want to thank you for putting yourself out there and being honest and transparent. I love that you’ve found a way to grow in your faith through blogging (shouldn’t we all feel that way?) and that you’ve found such a great friends online. What a gift! Thanks for sharing your encouragement.–
Wow, your journey mirrors mine in so many ways. I grew up going to church and we have gone back after taking a very long (8 year hiatus.). What brought us back is exactly what you wrote about – living faith in the everyday and seeking out God in the everyday. Thank you for the great reminder in your post. My day will be better because of it. Best wishes, Mandy