Have I mentioned that I’m a worrier?
I’m sure I have at some point. You know, when I’m ranting about how I need to slow down my life and be present.
Pray more. Worry less.
Understand + live under the shelter of my Heavenly Father who has a great plan always for my life.
Today we have a meeting with Katelyn’s preschool teacher.
Last week + this week I’m interviewing new preschools.
The school that Katelyn is at has been wonderful.
Still is wonderful + it’s where Brayden will start preschool in January.
I searched long and hard for the perfect preschool for Katelyn.
One that would embrace her social nature and love for life.
That would give her an enthusiasm for learning.
Katelyn has a love for learning
much like her mommy’s
with a personality that lights up a room
much like her daddy.
How could I really complain?
How can I be worried?
She loves school
She loves her teacher
She loves doing her homework
She loves her friends
She’s respectful of her peers + teachers
Developmentally she’s not where she needs to be I don’t think.
Trust me when I say that I know every kids learns at a different pace.
I have a Master’s in Education.
But I can’t help but have this itch in the back of my head that maybe Katelyn needs more of a push to help her academic growth.
Maybe she needs a more structured, concentrated environment to learn in.
I’m not bragging when I say that she’s a smart girl.
She remembers things that happened when she was 2.
She can drive by a place she went once and remember it, point it out and tell us why she went there.
If we drive down certain streets she can tell you whose house we’re going too.
But she’s not writing on her own.
She’s not recognizing her letters + numbers consistently.
So here’s my dilemma
We’re meeting with the school to decide if we need to move her for her last semester of preschool.
Do we pull her from a place she’s been for almost 2 years?
Remove her from the friends she’s made?
Just thinking about it makes me feel like I could possibly be the worst parent ever?
But wouldn’t I be worse if I didn’t think about what is best for her in the long run?
She’ll make new friends.
But if she has the chance to learn and grow academically to help her be ready for kindergarten,
isn’t that us, as parents, making the right choice for her?
Even if it seems difficult now.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that if you have a minute and you can pray for us today, we’d appreciate it.
Pray that we are able to make the right choice for her.
This whole thing has been feeling emotional and vulnerable.
I get that on one hand she’s only 4 1/2, but on the other hand, she’s 4 1/2 and needs to be ready for kindergarten.
So if you think about it, our meetings at 11 and our next preschool tour is on Wednesday.
We just want to do what’s right for our little girl.
I don’t want to look back on this time and feel as though I failed to make the best choice for her now
One that would and could affect her future.
Have any of you struggled with this? How did you know what decision would be best?
Katelyn is wearing BabyGap + these pictures were part of a shoot we did with Cristina Robeck Photography