In the weeks that followed I found myself looking for ways to call him.
Each time my phone rang I began to feel butterflies in my stomach.
Each time I pushed them aside.
I knew my current relationship was going no where good and it was time to go out separate ways.
It had nothing to do with Kyle.
This guy and I, well we were already on the rocks with no lighthouse in sight.
I needed to move on, be alone, reconnect with God.
My track record for bad choices had finally caught up with me.
When he and I finally had “the talk” I had already moved on in my head.
It took him longer to reach that place.
In fact he would be in and out of my life for months, although we never got back together.
When it was over I felt relieved.
I just needed space.
The evening after the break up I called Kyle.
He was with friends…
Boys night out.
“Hi Alissa, what are you up to?” he said, cool and casually.
Hold it together, hold it together
Out of nowhere the tears began to fall,
It wasn’t supposed to go like this.
“What’s wrong? What’s going on?”
I could hear the concern in his voice.
“We broke up. It was brutal. He’s not happy, but I needed to move on.”
I said it so fast, but in not much more than a whisper that I wasn’t sure if he even heard me.
I just sat there on my couch hoping he hadn’t. That I could take back what I had said.
Silence.
Great!
I’m such an idiot
“I shouldn’t have called,” I said quietly.
“I’m glad you did. I’m so sorry.”
“Thank you. I’m sorry I called, I guess I just needed to talk to someone.”
Then he said it, “I’m on my way, don’t go anywhere.”
Where was I going to go? I was clearly a mess.
“Ok,” was all that came from my mouth.
Then he hung up….
Bree says
Gahhhhhh, more more more!!! lol 🙂
Alissa Circle says
Coming soon, I promise! 😉
the Blah Blah Blahger says
I’m LOVING this!!!
Alissa Circle says
hahah I never thought when I started the series that people would enjoy it so much!
saralie says
Nooooo…….the suspense it too much!!
Alissa Circle says
hehehe I’m so tickled that y’all are enjoying reading our love story! xo
Colleen says
MUST KNOW HOW THIS PART ENDS STAT! I love this little blog home of yours… I am inspired, challenged and encouraged by you!
xoxo
Alissa Circle says
You are seriously soooo sweet!!
Part 5 coming soon….
Claire @ A Little Claireification says
Nooo – come on now, girl! If the season ends and we have to wait for Fall for the next episode we’ll all die. LOL
Alissa Circle says
well know you know I have to keep y’all on the edge of your seats. haha
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Just found you through the Sewing Summit teachers. Lovely blog. I can’t wait to hear the rest of your story! Thanks for sharing this part of your life openly for us all to read!
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lisa says
Hello,
Wow, this hit close to home. My ex-spouse of 6 years came out to me as transgender the day we came home from a vacation. I did my best to be supportive, but it wasn’t a life I wanted and I asked for a divorce. We’d already been on rocky terms and our marriage had deteriorated over the years. The whole thing threw me for a loop – it was hard to go through and come out of, but I did. My experience was similar to this author’s; looking back I noticed some signs, but I wasn’t aware of them until after the fact.love